THE FOLLOW THROUGH.UGH

This blog post is one I have come back to multiple times. In true fashion, just as the idea pinnacled, was set to become real, I walked away from it rather than following it through. That happens.

I can confidently say that over the last few years I have come to master the art of the follow thro- and that’s usually where I fall off. I get there almost every time. The idea is there. The ball is in the air. The trajectory is set. The spin is right. All the assets are made. I actually might almost hit the ball even, but then just at the last minute, that’s where I really master my craft of falling right off. I get right into my UGH phase. The phase, the thoughts, the doubts, the actual movement of the idea, that really just stops me and puts me right back in my searching for unreal perfection in all the wrong corners, instead of doing literally the most minuscule thing just to move the thing.

If I’m being honest, I have stayed there for years, in the place of overthinking and doubt and not wanting to see anything through to the point of public sharing. That’s where the fall off for me is. The confrontation of stepping through a place that expresses yourself vs avoiding the vulnerability of being judged. I know that land of deep thoughts, those courts of a million ideas, those comfort zone lines real well. That’s literally why I am here writing these words. To get through the UGH part of following through.

But then the UGH changed from the follow-through to ugh annoyed with myself for not doing it, for not doing anything. So many options, ideas and so many starts. and none of the follow-through. So here I am just giving it up for the amazing small act of following through. It’s just doing the next step. It’s not perfecting the whole thing. It’s just creating even the teeeenyest blog post sentence of a something. That is motion. Maybe that is the art of the follow through I was missing for so long. Sometimes the ugh is the only way through.