THE FOLLOW THROUGH.UGH

This is one I have come back to multiple times. In true fashion, just as the idea pinnacled, and could have become real or at least posted, I walked away from it rather than following it through.

I can confidently say that over the last few years I have come to master the art of the follow thro- and then getting stuck at ugh. I get there a lot of the time. The idea is formed. The ball is in the air. The trajectory is set. The spin is right. All the assets are made. I actually might almost hit the ball even, but then just at the last minute, that’s where I really master my craft of falling right off. I get right into my UGH phase. The phase, the thoughts, the doubts, the actual movement of the idea, that really just stops me and puts me right back in my searching for unreal perfection in all the wrong corners, instead of doing literally the most minuscule thing to finish the motion.

I know this place of overthinking and doubt and slowly putting things back down instead of sharing. Just to let them sit. In a cloud bin of a million actually pretty decent ideas instead of letting them be viewed and perceived by others. That’s where the fall off for me is. The confrontation of stepping through from hidden to visible. I know that land of deep thoughts, those courts of a million ideas, those comfort zone lines real well.

Because when I don’t just do one simple action to move an idea forward. Edit it. Publish it. Package it. Anything that give it form and movement the UGH changes from just being a simple ugh and doing it to an existential ugh, annoyed with myself for not doing it, for not doing anything. So many options, ideas and so many starts.

All this to say. I’m happy to make little moves and give a little verbal applause for our small, tiny yet powerful acts of following through. Just doing the next step in anything we feel pulled to create. It’s not perfecting the whole thing. It’s just creating even the teeeenyest sentence of something. That is motion. Maybe that is the art of the follow through I was missing for so long. Not searching for the invisible motivation juice, but rather just saying ugh and doing it anyway. It’s the only way thro-ugh.